8 days.

ocho dias mas.

Today was a fun day; if fun means horribly painful. As usual, more cd stuff to do, like finish!! I was right about my math test, I really bombed it. I guess in retrospect an 80/100 isnt that bad, yet I feel that I deserve much, much more, based upon my wonderfully neat handwriting and my skilled use of a calculator. Dorn says she will curve the test a "few" points-- the term few equating to either no curve or a negative one. I finished my career project for Cornell by the skin of my pants; most of the work was completed by 7:10 AM today (the day that it was due). Thankfully, my presentation for the same project went without a hitch, except for my cheezy flash not working, which, much to my luck, was the entire basis for my speech. Thank God I'm good with ad-libbing... (or is that womens libbing?).

Someone stole my "Supplies" Cd from my comp sci terminal-- a very important cd containing a whole bunch of hoobastank, default and nickelback, a version of photoshop 7.0, all the stuff for my comp sci project (most of my mario files, thankfully, were stored on a (my) little niche I discovered in one of the school D2 Servers), and a copy of Trillian, containing all my buddies (@#$%!) and the login to my aim account and matching saved passwords (which I have already changed >:P).

After I was done with collecting my 8 different zip disks from maynard's room, I went out to my car, started it up and blared my nickelback cd. moments later while calling my ma on my cell, I noticed my sports mode light blinking. "WTF is this?" I exclaimed, eyes still locked on the curious occurance located in my dash. Not one second later, my engine still going along fine, tac-o-meter humming along at 3500 rpms, transmission in 3rd gear, my speedometer reading drops from ~40 to 0. "WTF?!?!?!?!?!?" I screamed with much dismay. It was very obvious to me at that point that the onboard computer of my 91 Honda Accord EX had gone kaput... and who knows what will happen next! Had my father not purchased a brand new $1000 washing machine the day before (when there was absolutley no need to buy one [ours was working completely and totally fine, 10 or so years without a hitch]) I might have convinced him into getting me a new car (or at least one that had a working speed-o-meter).. but now he will give me the line "Well Brad, we just paid a lot to buy that new clothes-washer...and I really dont think that we can afford to fix that... or get you a new car.. you will just have to live with it for the next 6 years... or until you get you're masters, and, by the way, you will have to pay for everything after you get your B.S.". What total bullshit. How can I drive a car without a speedometer? I guess I will just have to estimate the speed... and have a handbrake installed (or Flinstone Foot Brakes) just in case the computer decides to be wacky and turn on the cruise control 8-O .. I can just see it now!

Oy. Oy Oy Oy. Not much else I can say.

Signing off.

Really this time!

Serious Link Pimpage:
Eunice's Blog
Claire's Blog

Need of the moment:
+An oompalupa dancing troupe.
+More bulgarian Pop music
+A CAR!!!!

7 days.

siete dias.

seriously need some new music. ive been listening to hoobastank, nickelback and default way too much in the last week, maybe I need to go back in the Mp3 archives and listen to some Everclear (OMG!).

Finally talked to caroline last night. Basically, i admitted how much I liked her and she admitted that things with matt (her ex b/f) are still sort of weird... he wants to commit sucide or something, and that I should sort of stay out of it for a while. *Sigh* Okayz.

Heard from Monique last night-- what a blast from the past. She was one of my old friends from the infamous U.S. History Cornell 5th period. I guess she is dead certian about becoming a mortician... you know one of those people that embalm and prepare dead people.. ("I see dead people!"). What an odd career choice, but more power to her for picking the only career where necrophilliacs can live without fear of oppression. oh my.

I went to apply for a internship today at a design firm called Highpoint. I talked to the president and ceo Michael Heilpern... he basically said that I have skills and if he can find somewhere to put me and something to do while there, that he will give me a job. Cool.

Other than that, my good old speedometer is still not working. O well. Im hoping for something more important to go wrong so that I can get rid of the friggin thing.

Mood: Happy.

5 days.

cinco mas dias.

Well, I missed the 6 day mark. Crap. I spent most of the night helping my ma with her dbhs awards night thingy. Didnt do my math homework. Bad boy. O well. Not quite ready for the big physics test that I think is today. O well.

Not much to say about yesterday, most of the knowlege that I had has evaporated... or something. Cabinet invited me to a party today at lunch so that I can accept some award. Pretty Spiffy. Also, I will be getting two awards tomorrow at the whs awards assembly, one, Dean's Award for Technology, and one for the walnut valley womens club... each for about $200. Yay.

Signing off.

four.

well this is the second time I have written this, and the message only gets more depressing.

im so pissed off at gene. what an asshole. he pretended to be caroline on aim and said that she liked me. yesterday, when he told me, I was on cloud nine, but now, once I found out, I feel like shit. why does he have to be such a jerk and call me a hobbit for being white? what is with all this discrimination shit? ive been friends with him for four years, and now, all of a sudden, he makes fun of the fact that im white, oddly enough at the same time jeni is being a bitch. is this interrellated? who knows and who cares. i just feel so dissillusioned because people who i regarded to be good friends, really arent. what the hell.

do i have any true friends anymore?

i dont think ill ever get a new car. the repairs for my honda cost $850 because my dad figured, if they have the crankshaft open, they might as well change the timing belts, etc. following the same logic, since they have the hood open, they might as well replace everything, right? when he got off the phone with the expensive news, he gave me a little smile and said, well son, its going to be $850. i assume that the smile signifies the final nail in the coffin that is my car, forever attaching me to it and forever dooming me to life in a '91 accord. and so it goes.

my mom suggests saving up all my grad money and attempting to buy something with wheels. she wont let me get any car without airbags, for safety reasons, which limits me to about '98 and above, generally $16,900 and above. how i am going to get that money, who knows. getting a job is great, but if you have no chance in the tech field, since all jobs except for internships need > 3 years of professional experience, and there are no internship jobs because money is tight, i have no chance at earning above minimum; therefore, no chance of ever getting a car. so it goes.

essentially, i am fucked. for the first time in my short life, I feel horribly sad. ill get over it.

three.

tres.

well three is a small number. the last monday of my high school years. everyone is so sad lately, yet disguising it very well so that they can have fun. Me too. Caroline cried in physics today... the first time ive seen a person cry because of the end of hs. ive awaited this day for three years, yet now that it is upon us, i wish there to be a few more weeks. sob.

I had originally planned to say this:
It has commenced...finals week is upon us in full force, seizing what sanity I have left after a menacing term. The thought of a pure, utopian society has faded while Walnut High School has captured the last breath of any rational existence and conquered our self-worth. In coming days it is likely to see a plethora of unpleasant faces staring into an oblivion that can only be experienced by the Walnut High School society. The underlying prolifigacy in which this institution so loves to put forth has taken a toll on our already feeble carcasses, in result of consuming repulsive school lunches. The possibility of survival is a distant notion...God help us all...

maybe not. im planning to mt. sac later to register for a few classes just in case I dont get an internship. should I take english 1a and something else? who knows.

must study for phys final. i need a 79% to get an A in that class. hoping and praying. gonna bring my camera tomorrow to get some end of the year snaps. sob.

im out.

one.

so i missed two. big deal.

root is being a huge asshole. i totally completed this shitty lps magazine, knowing that he previously agreed to give me an A in the class. Now all of a sudden, he is concerned with his integrity and supposedly he cant do it legally. he should have thought of that before. asshole. my new plan is to drop the lps magazine. "oo, mr root, sorry, i had to study for my essay and didnt have enough time to work on it.. maybe tomorrow"

or how about "fuck off, asshole"?

somehow, i dont think that would make him give me an A.

got in an accident with morgan's dad on grand and valley. big smash-um-up. rear-ended me and pushed me into some woman's car. car broke. thankfully it still runs, but guess whos getting a new paintjob, eh, eh?

worked on the project for comp sci. very cool. presentation tomorrow.

im super, super tired. ive spent over 100 hours on this fucking lps magazine and mr fruit wont even give me one iota of props (aka inflated grades). fucking asshole. this is the main reason why i failed my physics final and got a B in the class. damn him. damn him to hell.

grrr........ wishing to hurt someone right now may not be the most appropriate use of my time. just kiidddiiinnngg... he, he he..

::winky::

im out, spent and gone.

negative three.

i know this is the first blog since zero, and i know, ive been bad about updating my blog, but ive been so busy lately... so shove it. haha

present: im eating Philippine Brand 100% natural sweetened dried mangoes and authoring my blog-- a complete waste of time that tends to occupy my idle moments. The mangoes not the blog, that is. ;)

grad nite:
lets see, didnt have that much fun at gradnite, i was so wiped out from not sleeping and the music sucked ass. rhino ass... and thats a large quanitity of ass. I hung out with morg and tiffany... they were great, except all morgan wanted to do is go "raving", the reason for the quotes is that morgan is white and white people dont rave. its a law. We tried to stop her from humiliating herself and by doing so, drove me in to the depths of evil, the power 106 club! AAAh!! Not only were we the only white people there, but we were the only white people there, and all the non-white people, aka everyone, stared at us like we were wearing a huge sign entitled "Black People Suck" (which they dont). Aint it grand to be singled out for being white? what the hell is up with that? white people are ironically the most race accepting people on the planet, and all we get for it are lawsuits and dirty looks... how nice. other than that, three people on our bus were late, 2 hours late, but whos counting? 5:00 Am, everybody was supposed to meet back. 5:30 AM , most people were back, except for 3 chicana hoes who nobody knew. 6:30 AM, we decide to leave after much debate and after all the other buses left. 7:00 AM, halfway home, disneyland calls, "Um we have 3 of your students here waiting for you". The advisor was heard saying "They were late, they have to find a way home". Big Brother responded, "No, they arent our responsibility, so pick them up, damnit." Within moments, the bus made a U-Turn and we were headed back to the "Happiest Place on Earth". When we arrived, Sleepy, Stupid and Droopy took their happy little time coming back to the bus and to apologize, shouted the explicative "Shut the f*** up!". Nearly 45 minutes later, our bus pulled in at Walnut carrying haggard, weary sojurners that, sadly, were foaming at the mouth trying to hold the anger back.

Senior Brunch:
boring, boring boring. we had a hypnotist that suggested to Trevor that whenever he said "Ladies and Gentlemen" that he would say "Shuddup" or "Thats bullshit" and whenever he said it 5 times, he would come up on the stage and kick his ass. This was funny. Little did the hypnotist know that Trevor is insane. he could beat anyone down-- a special type of bludgeoning which nobody could deny. Unfortunatley, just after he lept on the stage, insane look in his eye, keil grabbed his arms and the hypnotist said "Sleep!". Ruined my fun, bastards.

Everything else:
Lets see, im tired. Ive got a few chicks that im working on now, Amy, stephanie (not shawn), and of course, KF, even though I have strong doubts because of her strong will and apparent bossyosity. Stephanie is so cute, but almost too modest. Amy is cute, but isnt very funny... but the jublies make up for it. ;) Do I think i have a chance with any of them; maybe one... but its worth a try.
Kasey and Alan want me to bring them lunch... and they arent even willing to bow! If i do it, it may mean that I get kicked out of the grad. ceremony, a price I am not willing to pay.
Grad rehersal is so f****** boring, i cant wait for it to be over. I guess I am able to get more of a tan, but I might roast out in the hot sun! I cant wait to graduate to be over with all this mess, and truly, I may not see anyone after graduation for the rest of my life, but the people that I really will miss will not be lost as friends. I wanna sleep.

Words of the week:

Bossyosity- the quotient of bossyness
Bleakity- the quanitity of bleakness

post grad

my first post after graduating. nothing is different, except my days are numbered in this town. bittersweet moments fill my days now, and without the support of my friends, I would be even more sad, if its possible.
graduation was nice. a great ceremony. after we came out on the field, and they called the names of each and every graduate, everybody was so excited. we turned our tassels in unison and without a moments hesitation, we had a decidedly liberating period in which, every guy, girl and boy hugged each other, and expelled a collective sigh of relief and sadness. Afterwards, the fact that I would never see most of the people there didn't truly sink in until the dawn of the last day of the week.

bittersweet.

morg had a party. I had a lot of fun. It was nice to be able to talk about high school in a very distant remote, post-game type thing. morg is cool. im having my big party harty tomorrow, should be fun. im getting my car back tonight.. hopefully a little better for the wear.

im starting a really cool relationship with Jinfae. shes really cute, nice and quirky... just how I like 'em. i wish i had time to go out with her today, but im not sure if I could... maybe next week ill ask her to a movie or something. im happy again.

Current Music:
Coldplay

searching for pibb-woman

had my post-grad party yesterday. twas quite fun, however, very tiring. i happened to get a chance to talk to Jinfae... and we talked about us, our relationship, her trip to taiwan and volunteering in walnut. she decided not to go to taiwan mainly cuz of me... *smile* how sweet! im so pleased that things are looking up for us... i never figured that we would be a couple, but its looking like it.
i went to the movies with aaron, aiko and sarah that night. we had decided to see minority report at 8:00 at puente. aaron and I were gonna be late, so i was in crazy mode. aiko and sarah went up to buy tix for all of us, bought them for themselves and found out that the theatre had sold out. bummer. we then decided to drive all the way to birch street in brea to see minority report. birch street is great. its sort of a fake old-town type thing.. really safe (with cops on every corner) and a nice place to walk around. we bought tickets for the 10:10 and went to some coffee shop. of course, i had to order my customary chai tea, which aaron told me is pronounced K-a-i instead of Ch-i... hes full of it. he also said that it is a greek tea, which i think is also incorrect. haha.
as tradition dictates my life, upon entrance of the movie theatre, i had to get my customary mr. pibb. in doing so, i mentioned to the cashier my affinity for pibb, and to my dismay, she concured with my thoughts of total pibb domination in the soda market. she was hot, liked pibb and i didnt even ask for her number. DOH! oh well. all i know is she poured me the meanest pibb i had ever tasted. it was sweet and had the distinctive mr. pibb feel yet its aftertaste was slightly creamy... almost like a Mr Pibb Cream Soda! Twas amazing! Throughout the movies, I had a "pibb-explosion"-- whenever i took a sip of the magical liquid, i was transported to a huge pibb orgie where my soda dreams came true. i wish i had gone back, thanked the Goddess and asked for the digits, but I will find the elusive pibb-woman someday.

today we went to some river with my uncle bob and their family. every time I see them, they get more and more screwed up. uncle bob has his little boat-power trip in which he sets the throttle at max and scares the be-jebus out of everyone. jerk. im hot, sunburnt and tired from the experience. my plans for the future are to take a nap.

:)

new design.

well i redesigned my blog in the new style of genome. i should have the site up soon seeing as I have so much time on my hands.

i interviewed for that job at frys. after an hour of hectic driving and at least twenty of getting ready, they told me that I wasn't old enough to work at frys. sod off, bastards. at that time, i had to wait another hour-thirty trying to get back home... all because of someone's mistake. great.

aaron is at dana's batmitzvah which means that my false plans to go to the movies are shot. maybe we'll do something during the week.

well that feels better :).

weird emails

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Quite Shocking.

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